Fire....

why i wonder?

why do i even bother?

something i have not done in a long time,

even to make this rhyme,

why feed this fire?

a time for renewal, a time for revival.

its been a while. more than a year in fact. 2010 has come and gone without me actually doing ANYTHING here. i have to admit, most of 2010 was spent doing stuff which seemed so insignificant now that i think about it. the time has come however to revive this dormant blog. a blog i created so that i could gather my thoughts. an outlet of my views. it seemed apt that i renew this on my 21st birthday. so here goes.

i have thus turned 21 on the 21st of march 2011. looking back at my 21 years (the ones i remember of course), what have i achieved? what is it i can look back on and say - yes! i did that! have i made my mark on the world? have i been a positive influence on people i know? questions i often ask on my birthday. some might find this depressing to think of such things on one's birthday, but i find it a very suitable time to review one's life. what have I done in the past year? if my major accomplishment was just make a complete trip around the sun, i guess a time for a major upheaval is in store.

God has been working very evidently in my life. i often repeat the story of how i missed out on the opportunity to study in the UK. what some might not know is that while it was my dream and my desire to go to the UK, i told God, have it your way, not mine. Needless to say, he provided and here i am in NUS.

Singapore is a very tough place to be in. For someone with a laid back personality, who likes to smell the roses and enjoy the finer points of life, Singapore is a drastic change. The pace of life here really amazed me at first and still does continue to amaze me. in the midst of this business, God is still working in my life. i feel very blessed that He placed many Christian friends around me, to encourage and support me. It was through these friends that I find comfort the energy to go on.

I feel very thankful that God has placed me where I am today. It is not by chance that I chose physics. It is not by chance that I chose FCBC. It is also not by chance that I chose PGP VCF. I have learnt that when God has a plan for you, it is bound to be a great one. Whether you stick to the long and narrow long enough to see the plan unfold is a different matter. Sticking to the long and narrow is tough, but it is one I intend to do! No more fooling around, no more detours, no more slacking. Enough is enough! One thing i know for sure. I WILL NOT BE ALONE!

Those of us who do not live under coconut shells will know of what is happening in the world today. Revolutions in the middle east. The big earthquake and subsequent tsunami in Japan. Are these signs of the end times? We live in exciting times. Will this generation be the one who will witness the second coming? Some might argue that these things happen all the time. But I do feel that something is afoot. Major earthquakes have been happening more frequently. What used to be peaceful and stable nations are now being shaken to the very core by revolutions. Tensions amongst nations seem to be increasing. Being a scientist in training, i have learnt that random events tend to cluster. However the frequency of these clustered events make it seem unlikely that all of this is just a random event. I do not and will not know when He is coming till He comes. But i want to be ready.

This post may seem sobering but that is just what some of us need. We need to WAKE up. We need to RISE up. There is no time like the present. It is a time for renewal, it is a time for revival.

i'm back

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! yes, my A2 exams are finally over.... after one and a half years at TARC, my tenure there is finally over.... ah, the joy and the relief.... oh well, i'm not quite ready to open the champagne yet, not till after my results that is....

so i guess i'll be posting more often since my exams are over... however, i dont think i have the mood to write anything interesting or of worth in the next few days.... maybe after i come back from my cousin's wedding in australia.... haha....

the good thing bout finishing your exams is obvious, no more studying, no more slugging it out till late, no more last minute madness.... although that is only temporary.... on the flipside, having no reason to go back to college makes meeting ones college frens rather difficult.... i have frens from all over malaysia... even those who stay "near" kl are spread out.... cheras, setapak, ampang, subang, shah alam...... to get all together is truly difficult.... i guess there is always a chance i'll bump into them again.... someday...

i will be taking a short break and be lazy for one month i guess... in the new year, i think i'd most probably be working... come to think of it, if i DONT work, i'll be bored to death.... hopefully i'd get an interesting job, which isnt too boring.... lets just hope...

now i guess its time to reconnect with some of my frens which i have partly ignored cuz of exams.... ah, if you are one of them, sorry.... its just that a levels takes alot outta you.... esp further math...

that would be all for now.... till next time.

rare post.

the title says all.... this is one of the few rare post here for the time being..... i'm pretty much too busy at the moment.... there is so much to do.... argh.... trials are over, which means the real thing is not too far away.... oct 19 to be exact.... ends early though.... nov 16... i WILL update consistently AFTER my exams.... but for now, i'm caught up in the world of exams..... i hope i come out of this alive(big exaggeration)....

to anybody who cares, selamat hari raya....

ciao. till after my exams......

back for a short one....

i've been gone quite long i guess so here is a post to indicate i'm still alive...

i've been REALLY bz lately, and i fell sick... nope, its NOT H1N1 - a question which is bound to be asked.... A2 is tough.... there is alot to study, i mean ALOT.... lessons are interesting, but revising and studying for exams is no mean feat.... i love learning, not studying....

for all those who took A2 or AS in june, D-Day is 2mr.... or if u read this late, its alredi over... which means i'm currently relieved, or depressed and stressed.... it depends on the results 2mr.... aih....

time is NOT my best fren right now.... it juz seems to fly when i need it, and go slow when i want it to fly.... hmm.... i think EVERYBODY gets the same feeling some phase of life.... and they said 24 hrs a day is constant....

life will be even more hectic very soon.... the frequency of posts will drastically drop.... i hope it wont be so but well, life's like that.... hopefully if i have the time i'll do a proper one.... haha.... part 2 is still in progress(chemistry one).... so i guess thats at least ONE post i'll be producing in the near future.... till then.... out.

little bit of chemistry (part 1)...

hmm.... for those who dont know chem, this post might seem a bit confusing, but there is a hidden meaning behind it.... juz thought of it when i couldnt sleep one night.... haha.... it might seem lame, but just see the parallel....

few people i know have characteristics that can be modelled by certain chemical compounds or elements.... haha, juz check this out and compare....

Water(H20)- Joy.

Although common and taken for granted, water is a very important fluid. it has a very high specific heat capacity, enabling it to absorb much heat. this causes it to be a very good cooling agent. water is also a universal solvent, being able to form strong hydrogen bonds with certain compounds, and electrostatic attraction with others.

Nitrogen Gas(N2) - Xian

Nitrogen gas is ever abundant. It is a highly stable gas which does not react under normal conditions. This is due to the strong triple bond it forms with itself, requiring a large amount of energy to break. However, nitrogen can react under extreme conditions, forming compounds which are commonly made into explosives. Nitrogen is also very essential to the living organisms, and thus sustains life.

Oxygen Gas(O2) - Rachel

The importance of oxygen is unquestionable. It is requried to sustain life. Oxygen itself does not combust, but supports combustion. It is abundant and is able to form compounds with other elements. The addition of oxygen to any compound is called oxidation. In this process, the oxidation number of another element tends to increase.

Sodium(Na) - Emily

Sodium metal is highly reactive, it belongs to Group 1 of the periodic table. Sodium loses its electron easily to form an ion. This ionic state of sodium enables it to carry charge, thus allowing the compound to conduct electricity. This is only true if sodium is dissolved in water(refer to above). Sodium metal by itself is highly explosive even if its size is small.

Potassium(K) - Elaine

The characteristics of potassium is almost the same as that of sodium. It is however a bigger atom and more electropositive. This means its tendency to lose an electron is higher. Potassium and sodium are in the same Group in the periodic table, so their characteristics are highly simillar. It is no wonder sodium and potassium are commonly mentioned together.

end of part 1...

part 2 will contain the next few ppl on my list, namely the remaining memnbers of cy3, including myself(if i can think of any)....

till next time ciao.

1st week of classes....

so my 1st week back to college for classes.... its been rather tiresome, finishing late almost everyday.... but well, thats life.... you don't always get what you want....

anyway, TarC now is fully loaded.... at MAXIMUM capacity.... when i say its FULL i mean its FULL.... never have i seen so many people in canteens, computer labs, or even our "yum-yum park" before.... man, there are so many people in the college i wish half of them would just dissapear.... haha.... oh well....

1st thing we were greated with when we came for class is that we'll have another test in bout 3 weeks time (or less).... oh great.... even more tests.... worse still, i've realised that A2 is just 4 months away.... thats VERY soon.... i dont even remember most of my A2 stuff....

argh, lets do away with the depressing stuff for a while and get on to happier things....

i went for my math lecturers wedding on sunday.... haha.... CONGRATS MISS CHIN!! hmm.... it was a memorable event... haha.... besides that, i just yest a very kind soul offered me two tix to see MU play here.... HAHA.... so I'M GOING TO SEE MAN U!!!!! i'm going with my fren ler of course.... i wanted to go but well, tix were sold out real fast.... hmm.... and yes this is my first time watching a live football game.... just cant wait...

right, nothing much to say anymore.... so thats all for now.... ciao...